Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Bitter Sweet Weigh In
Yep... I am having a bitter sweet weigh in today. I posted on my fill from last thursday that has been giving me such problems and guess what... I still have the same problem. It is so frustrating. I get choked up over liquids even. I am unable to finish a full yogurt in 1 sitting. It takes me 3 bites maybe and I'm feeling stuck. Yesterday I got choked up on my drink and it had me getting way to personal with my work trash can. I found some sugar free hawaiian punch singles right after my surgery at WalMart, which tastes just like the real thing and they come in a box of like 10 or 12 for $1. can't beat that. Well I recently found the same thing but in a lemon berry flavor.... OH MY GOSH, YUMMY... Well anyway, I stopped by the store yesterday to get some soup... I have got to keep something down, but no luck. It just seems to get everything stuck and it all comes back up.... so after 6 days now of this... I did my weigh in this morning and down 5 lbs.... I love that I lost, but this is definitely not the way I want to lose it. I thought by now it would even itself out and it wouldn't be so tight, but I am still not having luck. I am seriously thinking about getting some taken out, just finding the time to do so this week is gonna be difficult, we are already short handed as it is.
TOTAL LOSS THUS FAR !!!
TOTAL LOSS THUS FAR !!!
Monday, February 18, 2008
Welcome to the 2008 edition of gettting to know your friends.
1. What is your occupation? Marketing & Contract Specialist
2. What color are your socks right now? white
3. What are you listening to right now? radio, mix station
4. What was the last thing that you ate? refried beans from taco bueno, thinned out with salsa
5. Can you drive a stick shift? no
6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? a sales rep for our company
7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Don't really know them
8. How old are you today? 31
9. What is your favorite sport to watch? Hockey
10. What is your favorite drink? ice tea
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yep
12. Favorite food(s)? popcorn, peanut butter, chips and queso
13. What was the last movie you watched? The Spiderwick Chronicles
14. Favorite day of the year? Thanksgiving
15. How do you vent anger? raise my voice
16. What was your favorite toy as a child? barbie's and dolls
17. What is your favorite season? fall
18. Hugs or Kisses? Both
19. Cherries or Blueberries - Cherries
20. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? IF they want
21. Who is the most likely to respond? Kim
22. Who is least likely to respond? not sure
23. Living where? Texas
24. When was the last time you cried? yesterday...see putting it in neutral
25. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes
26. Who is the friend you have had the longest? JoAnna
27. What did you do last night? went to a movie and dinner and then spent the rest of the evening with Michael at home.
28. Favorite smell? Mulberry
29. What inspires you? my family
30. What are you most afraid of? failing
31. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Cheese
32. Favorite dog breed(s)? I love em all
33. Favorite day of the week? Saturday
34. How many states have you lived in? 2, Texas and New Mexico
35. What is your favorite way to relax? go to the movies
Movie Review by ME
I would never claim to be a movie critique, I am not as picky as they are. I love a movie for simple reasons and all that cinematogrophy stuff doesn't really matter as much to me as the normal so called critiques.
I saw Jumper and The Spiderwick Chronicles this weekend. I liked both of them.
Jumper was pretty good, action packed and made me wanna be able to do that too for sure :) I want a super power, or maybe a couple. A different power for each day would be fun too.
I saw Spiderwick Chronicles yesterday and it was super cute. I am not above going to see a kids movie :) I think I enjoyed it as much if not more than all the children that surrounded us. I do have to say that is the quietest I have ever been in a theatre when there were so many children. I couldn't believe how quiet it was. Maybe they were just that into the movie as well. It was a really cute story.
I saw Jumper and The Spiderwick Chronicles this weekend. I liked both of them.
Jumper was pretty good, action packed and made me wanna be able to do that too for sure :) I want a super power, or maybe a couple. A different power for each day would be fun too.
I saw Spiderwick Chronicles yesterday and it was super cute. I am not above going to see a kids movie :) I think I enjoyed it as much if not more than all the children that surrounded us. I do have to say that is the quietest I have ever been in a theatre when there were so many children. I couldn't believe how quiet it was. Maybe they were just that into the movie as well. It was a really cute story.
v-day fill
My cup boil-ith over... that's an understatement. I think what goes down must come up should be my new motto. I think I got over filled... for sure. I am having the hardest time keeping anything down. Even yogurt is giving me grief. Taking my meds, even drinking a couple of sips of milk. I visited the bathroom at Applebee's so many times Sat night, I think they thought I was going to take up residence in there. I went to the bathroom 5 times. My waitor I'm sure was wondering what was wrong when I didn't touch a thing on my plate. I had a cheese stick prior to my plate arriving and that was all she wrote... nothing more after that would work. Makes for good left overs for Michael I suppose.
The only thing I have managed to keep down was the soup on friday evening. Saturday I tossed my food, yesterday at breakfast I had 2 bites and tossed that. The waitress asked my friend when I went to the bathroom if there was something wrong with my breakfast, and she told her no, it was fine. Last night after an afternoon of shopping and a movie with a girlfriend.... digressing here....... I went to the Cacique store that's near by to find some sexy understuffs :) and I hit the jackpot, I got 3 hot little teddies, 1 bustier with garter straps, a jean jacket and a couple of shirts for $108 bucks. I saved 116 bucks... it was crazy. I felt like a shopping goddess being able to get such a deal :) go ME go ME !! ... okay back on topic now... after the movie I suggested soup'er salad to eat, I knew I could try some soup there. They had some baked salmon soup which was amazing and being able to serve it myself, I got more juice than meaty stuff and that was perfect. I tried to eat some salad but it got stuck and put me in the bathroom 2 times. So after that clearing I just stuck with the soup, it was really good.
I know I should go get some taken out, but I hate to do that. So I was going to try to wait it out until it just evened itself out.
So far this morning, I managed to get my banana cream flavored yogurt down and it only took me nearly 2 hours to do that :) but hey it's down and staying there :)
The only thing I have managed to keep down was the soup on friday evening. Saturday I tossed my food, yesterday at breakfast I had 2 bites and tossed that. The waitress asked my friend when I went to the bathroom if there was something wrong with my breakfast, and she told her no, it was fine. Last night after an afternoon of shopping and a movie with a girlfriend.... digressing here....... I went to the Cacique store that's near by to find some sexy understuffs :) and I hit the jackpot, I got 3 hot little teddies, 1 bustier with garter straps, a jean jacket and a couple of shirts for $108 bucks. I saved 116 bucks... it was crazy. I felt like a shopping goddess being able to get such a deal :) go ME go ME !! ... okay back on topic now... after the movie I suggested soup'er salad to eat, I knew I could try some soup there. They had some baked salmon soup which was amazing and being able to serve it myself, I got more juice than meaty stuff and that was perfect. I tried to eat some salad but it got stuck and put me in the bathroom 2 times. So after that clearing I just stuck with the soup, it was really good.
I know I should go get some taken out, but I hate to do that. So I was going to try to wait it out until it just evened itself out.
So far this morning, I managed to get my banana cream flavored yogurt down and it only took me nearly 2 hours to do that :) but hey it's down and staying there :)
Putting it in Neutral
Well I wasn't sure if I was going to post about this or not, but it's something in my life and it's causing not only heartache but daily stresses... so where better than to spill my guts. About a week ago, Michael came to me and told me that he was having a problem. I could tell by the way he was acting it was about to be my problem. Well he told me that he was having urges to flirt and talk to other girls. He said he didn't want to do it because he didn't want to disrespect me, but it was something that was tempting him. (just a little history)--- Michael has basically been married most of his life--10 years, he's only 29-- he hasn't even been divorced a year yet and he's had one girlfriend prior to me. Soooo he has never really dated, never done alot of flirting and talking with other girls. **M** was his wife and **B** was his ex girlfriend who he ended up cheating on both of at the end of their relationships. (he cheated on **M** with **B** and then cheated on **B** with **M**) Thank goodness **M** has moved to Portland and **B** just moved to Oklahoma... so he isn't tempted by the 2 of them :) haha
Michael never expressed such feelings to either of them, he just cheated. So it tells me alot that he actually wanted to have this conversation with me. We talked about it for awhile, and I see where he is coming from. He doesn't want to ruin what we have because he says he knows I am the one and that he wants to end up with me for the rest of his life. He just says he needs to get this out of his system, so that when we and if we get back together, then he can be all about me again. (DOES THIS MAKE SENSE?) I am trying to make sense of it all myself, and let me tell you, it's not easy. I do love him and I am doing my best to be understanding and okay with giving him his freedom. He says we will still date and spend time together, just not as committed as we have been these last couple of months.
Well.... Mr. I am not a Jealous person (or so he told me when we met) really did turn out to be SUPER JEALOUS, when some guy asked me out to dinner at The Grotto, a very upscale restraunt in the area. I had heard about the restraunt by my bosses and people that could afford that kinda stuff, but had never been there, so I was kinda interested in going. But I was not keen on the idea of going on a date with some other guy.
Michael hated it, and admitted that he guessed was jealous after all, that he had never been jealous in his past 2 relationships, but for some reason didn't want to share me at all. He said that was not fair of him to say because he was the one with this idea.
He is sorta funny how he is trying to mark his territory at my apt just in case I invite someone over. He bought me 2 dozen tulips (my fav) for v-day and then bought me a dozen silk tulips and they are in a vase that appears to have water in it, but it's fake... it's the coolest vase. He told me those will last forever and you can show them to any guy that comes over and tell them that your BOYFRIEND got those for you. I just laughed. One of the cards he gave me for v-day said that he hoped I would wait for him.
Last night he broke down and told me that he was scared that he was going to "goof off" too long and that I would find someone else before he got him "mind" straight and that he would lose me forever. He said he couldn't bear that thought. I told him if that was the case and he felt so strongly he wouldn't be doing this mess. He said I was right. It totally breaks my heart, but what am I to do. I can't sit around and be a fool waiting for something and someone I don't know will get his "mind" right. Then I would be as big a fool as he is being now. I do somewhat understand what he is thinking and I would definitely prefer him get this dating junk out of the way NOW verses a few years down the road.
I decided to go out on Friday with Ben to the Grotto... only because Michael headed to oklahoma for a date with Liz. I had a great time at the Grotto, it was beautiful and I loved the She-crab Soup... that's all I could eat. I have had the worst time with this last fill---more on that in the next post--but the soup was fantastic. Ben had the duck and said it was wonderful as well. Ben was really sweet, complimented me endlessly. I always love hearing my pictures don't do me justice. He loved my outfit... have to say I was looking cute. had the knee high boots on and was all spiffied up... that always makes me feel good. He was nice, and I can see us being friends, but I am so not interested in anything more. Michael had fun on his date, said the girl was "cool" but then when he got home the next day she called and said she wasn't interested in persuing anything. OUCH that's gotta hurt !!!
Well that's about all I have on this topic for now... it kills me to think about it and talk about it. It's stressful on a daily basis. I'm sure there will be more to come.
Michael never expressed such feelings to either of them, he just cheated. So it tells me alot that he actually wanted to have this conversation with me. We talked about it for awhile, and I see where he is coming from. He doesn't want to ruin what we have because he says he knows I am the one and that he wants to end up with me for the rest of his life. He just says he needs to get this out of his system, so that when we and if we get back together, then he can be all about me again. (DOES THIS MAKE SENSE?) I am trying to make sense of it all myself, and let me tell you, it's not easy. I do love him and I am doing my best to be understanding and okay with giving him his freedom. He says we will still date and spend time together, just not as committed as we have been these last couple of months.
Well.... Mr. I am not a Jealous person (or so he told me when we met) really did turn out to be SUPER JEALOUS, when some guy asked me out to dinner at The Grotto, a very upscale restraunt in the area. I had heard about the restraunt by my bosses and people that could afford that kinda stuff, but had never been there, so I was kinda interested in going. But I was not keen on the idea of going on a date with some other guy.
Michael hated it, and admitted that he guessed was jealous after all, that he had never been jealous in his past 2 relationships, but for some reason didn't want to share me at all. He said that was not fair of him to say because he was the one with this idea.
He is sorta funny how he is trying to mark his territory at my apt just in case I invite someone over. He bought me 2 dozen tulips (my fav) for v-day and then bought me a dozen silk tulips and they are in a vase that appears to have water in it, but it's fake... it's the coolest vase. He told me those will last forever and you can show them to any guy that comes over and tell them that your BOYFRIEND got those for you. I just laughed. One of the cards he gave me for v-day said that he hoped I would wait for him.
Last night he broke down and told me that he was scared that he was going to "goof off" too long and that I would find someone else before he got him "mind" straight and that he would lose me forever. He said he couldn't bear that thought. I told him if that was the case and he felt so strongly he wouldn't be doing this mess. He said I was right. It totally breaks my heart, but what am I to do. I can't sit around and be a fool waiting for something and someone I don't know will get his "mind" right. Then I would be as big a fool as he is being now. I do somewhat understand what he is thinking and I would definitely prefer him get this dating junk out of the way NOW verses a few years down the road.
I decided to go out on Friday with Ben to the Grotto... only because Michael headed to oklahoma for a date with Liz. I had a great time at the Grotto, it was beautiful and I loved the She-crab Soup... that's all I could eat. I have had the worst time with this last fill---more on that in the next post--but the soup was fantastic. Ben had the duck and said it was wonderful as well. Ben was really sweet, complimented me endlessly. I always love hearing my pictures don't do me justice. He loved my outfit... have to say I was looking cute. had the knee high boots on and was all spiffied up... that always makes me feel good. He was nice, and I can see us being friends, but I am so not interested in anything more. Michael had fun on his date, said the girl was "cool" but then when he got home the next day she called and said she wasn't interested in persuing anything. OUCH that's gotta hurt !!!
Well that's about all I have on this topic for now... it kills me to think about it and talk about it. It's stressful on a daily basis. I'm sure there will be more to come.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
FILL 'ER UP !!!
I had a fill this morning... let me tell you I was dragging butt trying to get there by 745 this morning. Michael decided he wanted to go see Welcome Home Roscoe Jenkins (wasn't on my list of movies I wanted to see--but I let him have his way) but the movie didn't start until 1015... so by the time it was over and we got back home, I wasn't in bed until after 1:30. So 6:30 came way to quickly this morning.
I went to get my fill, this is my 3rd. We had a little snaffu... I don't know for sure, but I think the girl doing my fill was fairly new. She had a hard time getting the needle in the right spot. After digging around a little bit ( I should of requested the numbing--but I didn't know she was going on an expedition) She dug around a bit and then called in another nurse for help. That nurse dug around a bit and said there was something wrong with the needles, so she decided to try with another needle. Still no go, so she said they were going to take me to x-ray... OKAY.. I am starting to freak... what have I done wrong, what's the problem. She said it was not uncommon and that there was nothing wrong. They were going to take me to xray so they could see the entry to the port easier. The 2nd nurse was giving the first nurse directions on how to read the screen and what angle to go in at. I was thinking, I don't remember the disclaimer that said you waive your rights by using this nurse who doesn't know what she is doing yet. Where is my warning, where to I veto that option? I think she needs to practice a few more times on an orange or something. I don't want to be a guinea pig especially when it comes to long needles being injected into my stomach.
It wasn't all that bad, but funny all the same. I got a 1.2 cc fill today which I could definitely tell when trying to drink my water. I could feel it gurgling down. I had lost 1.8 more lbs since Tuesday. That's pretty cool I think.
I hope your all having a fantastic Valentines Day !!!
I went to get my fill, this is my 3rd. We had a little snaffu... I don't know for sure, but I think the girl doing my fill was fairly new. She had a hard time getting the needle in the right spot. After digging around a little bit ( I should of requested the numbing--but I didn't know she was going on an expedition) She dug around a bit and then called in another nurse for help. That nurse dug around a bit and said there was something wrong with the needles, so she decided to try with another needle. Still no go, so she said they were going to take me to x-ray... OKAY.. I am starting to freak... what have I done wrong, what's the problem. She said it was not uncommon and that there was nothing wrong. They were going to take me to xray so they could see the entry to the port easier. The 2nd nurse was giving the first nurse directions on how to read the screen and what angle to go in at. I was thinking, I don't remember the disclaimer that said you waive your rights by using this nurse who doesn't know what she is doing yet. Where is my warning, where to I veto that option? I think she needs to practice a few more times on an orange or something. I don't want to be a guinea pig especially when it comes to long needles being injected into my stomach.
It wasn't all that bad, but funny all the same. I got a 1.2 cc fill today which I could definitely tell when trying to drink my water. I could feel it gurgling down. I had lost 1.8 more lbs since Tuesday. That's pretty cool I think.
I hope your all having a fantastic Valentines Day !!!
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