So long Mickey and Minnie

This is tooo funny... we have had a mouse problem in our building and our work awhile back... it was kinda freaky the day I got in my desk drawer and saw my honey and ketsup packets with little tiny teeth marks in them.... it was soooo icky. I cleaned it up, cleaned it with bleach and got rid of any food... except for the things in my covered containers. Well they put down some sticky boards under the desks to catch any stragglers hanging around. Well I haven't seen mickey or minnie lately, but we got the funniest email this morning from HQ about the "alien invaders" I am blocking out my company's name just cause I think I should :) haha

WE NEED YOUR HELP !!

Due to the short winter, increased rainfall, and the smorgasbord provided by our employees, we are experiencing an influx of mice. The only thing that Facilities is legally permitted to do is put out sticky boards. We cannot fumigate, use poison, or bring in cats. This problem will NOT go away until the mice STOP being fed at the (removed Company) Employee BUFFET.

I will ask you all again to please insure that if your employees have food items, candy, etc. in/on/near their desks that they are stored in hard surfaced, tightly sealed containers. This is something we should all be doing anyway. Ziploc baggies do not count. Glass enclosed credenzas do not count. Overhead bins do not count. Metal cabinets do not count.

If your department has a luncheon, party, meeting, etc., please make sure that all the leftover food gets put up, thrown away, or stored properly as soon as possible. Do not let it stay out all day. You can’t cover it up and let it stay out on a table overnight – no matter what it is. This is a magnet for our unwelcome guests.

Pest Control is on site every Friday. If you see any mice or bugs, please call the Helpline (X 3333) and put in a work order so they can check out that area, treat it, monitor it, etc. We have no mice problems in the cafeteria, break rooms, or areas of the building other than yours!! According to our Pest Control vendor, this is because there is no open food in these other areas.

If one of these pesky mice gets stuck on a sticky board, please call Security at X 3333 or the dock at X 3333 or X 3333 and they will remove them right away. If they have left you a friendly reminder of their visit to your area, please call the Helpline and put in a work order and we will have it cleaned up.

Security will be monitoring your areas closely to let you know which of your employees is attributing to the weight gain of the mice. We will be checking drawers, cabinets, etc. We expect you to discuss this with your employees and make sure it does not continue.

Please communicate to all your employees the above in your own words and that the mice are not our friends, they are not the (removed company) mascot, nor do they make good pets. If they don’t have an ID badge and access card, they are NOT welcome in our building !!

This email I thought was just to hilarious. First thing I thought when it said we don't have this problem in the cafeteria... was they wouldn't eat that crap if it was laying out anyway :) Break rooms??? who the hell gets a break around here?

Some of the shinanigans that goes on around here just make me laugh.

Hope you guys are having a great Thursday.

Date Night

YEAH for date night.... it was kinda a spur of the moment date night last night for Chris and I, but it turned out to be WONDERFUL. Chris was at my apt waiting for me when I got home, he looked so cute leaned up against his car next to my parking spot. We went in to let the doggies out for a walk and then headed over to a friend of mine to show him some things she was wanting to have him work on for her around her house. He just grabs a couple of ladders and heads up to the top of her roof.... I was like ummmmmm well I think she meant later this week, but OKAY :) We had a yucky hail storm lately and it blew the top off her fireplace and a couple of panels off of her siding and he jumped up there to fix them both... she was so impressed and so was I, it was sooo cute. Then the 3 of us headed to a near by restraunt for some food :) After dinner we went to the studio movie grill for a movie. We saw 88 minutes with Al Pacino, it was really good. We were all cuddled up and these 2 ladies came and sat in the row in front of us and one turned around while she was taking off her coat and was smiling at us. I said hi and she said it was nice to see 2 people out on a date. I just laughed. We shared a strawberry milkshake and some warm choc chip cookies in the movie.... I love the studio movie grill. Wish they had more of a selection though, but what do you expect for a movie theatre that serves you food. I had so much fun. We then headed to get some gas in my car.... which seems to be a regular routine these days, it's depressing everytime I pull up to the pump.

I actually don't have a weigh in today cause I was running late this morning and didn't get the scale out... remember I have it in hiding so I don't get obsessive about stepping on it every chance I get. I have it put up so it's not as easy to just walk over and get on. I actually have to take it out and put it back each time... hey it works for me. I will do the weigh in tomorrow... promise :) Have a great Tuesday everyone.

Is my luck actually changing?

That's the question of the day I have... I had a great weekend with Chris and his son Daniel this weekend. We just couldn't seem to get enough of each other and it was a great feeling. It started off Friday evening with Chris and Daniel arrived at my apt shortly after I got off work. Chris runs up to mean and just engulfs me in his arms... I love when he does that. He rushes up fast to me alot of times and says he does it because he's so excited to see me and wants me to know that :) it's adorable. We then left to go to dinner and then to get a movie. We rented Mr. Magoriums Wonder Emporium and it was super cute. I really liked it. We all went to bed pretty late and got up earlier than I really like on Saturday morning, but that was okay too. I let Chris sleep in a little while Daniel and I played some playstation. Then I took off outside to plant some flowers along the sidewalk to my apt and under my front windows. I am in the flower planting mood for the first time ever... my patio I planted while I was out of work a couple of weeks ago and it's blooming nicely... along the sidewalk I planted all kinds of bulbs, so they haven't bloomed yet, but I can't wait until they do. Chris came out and helped me, it was so fun. I will think of him I'm sure everytime I look at them. Saturday was kinda a mellow day, we took Daniel to the park after I helped him finish all his homework and that was great fun, it was so beautiful outside. Saturday evening we went to check on Chris's mom because she had been super bummed about some problems going on with her boyfriend, so we didn't want her to stay alone and invited her to come over to my house with us. We rented some more movies and stopped by the store to get fixins for burritos/tacos/tostadas... which Daniel seems to love... says they are better than Taco Bell... don't know if that is saying much, but I try :) as long as he is pleased !

We had a pretty lazy day yesterday, I cooked a roast and some potatos and carrots and then we went to Chris's last night to watch the STARS WIN the first round :) YEAH GOOOO STARS !!

So when I got back home last night there is the sweetest little love note waiting for me on my bed from Chris telling me how wonderful of a weekend it was and how he cannot wait to wrap his arms around me again... which as I look at the time now will be in about 15 mins... Gotta run friends off to see my sweetie.

Have a wonderful week !!!

Life Explained

On the first day, God created the dog and said:'
Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'

The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?'

So God agreed.

On the second day, God created the monkey and said:
'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'

The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'

And God agreed.

On the third day, God created the cow and said:
'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'

The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?'

And God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created man and said:
'Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.'

But man said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the tenthe dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?''

Okay,' said God, 'You asked for it.'

So that is why for our first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family y. For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.Life has now been explained to you.

I'M BACK.... and Weighing In

Hello Everyone... I missed you guys so much. Sorry I have made myself a stranger, but things have been so crazy. I am back, not just to my blog but to work. I took an extended leave due to a near break down... when and how do you classify it as a TRUE break down?? Well I can tell you, my dr is the one that took me out, and she is the one who put me on my pills !!! Just what I need, more pills huh? Well these were to make me settle down and relax a little, goodness sakes, I was needing it. The story is so long, I don't know that my fingers would hold up if I was to tell it all, so I will give you a "CLIFF NOTES" version. Basically a couple of weeks ago Michael called and we were discussing his father's health, he was in the ICU at the time, not expected to make it... which he did, Thank GOD ! Anyway, Michael was updating me on his father's condition because I do love his parents and he told me he was on his way to the hospital to see him. I told him to tell them hello for me. Well shortly after hanging up there was a knock on my door, when opening it, I see Michael there, I was a little stunned due to our previous convo where he stated he was on his way to the hospital, I asked what he was doing there and he said he wanted to see me. It had been a little while, since I told him to move on... So we talked for a little bit and then the drama insued.... He took his cell phone out and wanted me to watch him delete the girls numbers and pics out of it, I told him I didn't care and didn't want to see and it was to little to late, he got so angry that he threw his phone against my dinning room wall and shattered it. I was so shocked, I couldn't believe it. I told him he had to leave that I wasn't interested in watching him act like a child, and as he passed by me he said I can't believe you are doing this to me and he shoved me which caused me to fall over my coffee table. As I got up, crying and all I was way freaked out to say the least. I would of never have guessed he would do something of that nature. He of course said how sorry he was and didn't mean to do it and that he loved me more than anything, I said yeah well I don't want to be loved so much you have to push me, I could do without that kinda love. He grabbed my cell phone and I tried to pull it back away from him and we kinda wrestled over it a bit until he let go and my back was to him and he shoved me into the door jam near my staircase head first. YEAH sounds fun huh......... well he left after that. Sooo there began my somewhat of a breakdown. I couldn't believe this was happening and it was sickening to me. I called all the girls, including his ex wife and filled them all in on what was going on and let them know just what the real story was... they had no clue that he was playing both ends. Well since then they have all stopped talking to him, his ex wife changed her number, and vowed never to have anything to do with him. Shortly after our incident, he tried to kill himself, twice. He was torturing me I tell ya. He was sending me text messages saying I was the cause of his death and he could not live if he could not have me. It was horrible to say the least. So things have been rough........ but getting better now. He found out where Chris lives and showed up at 5 am on Saturday morning, Chris is not standing for it. I don't think I could of made it the last couple of weeks if I didn't have Chris, his son and his mom to cheer me up and take my mind off of it all. They have all been wonderful and always make me feel welcome when I visit them. I have been spending alot of time at Chris's with him and his son and his mom comes over alot to watch his son when we go run errands or just need to get away for awhile, she's great and I really like her alot. Well as far as the weighing in... the lbs have been dropping a little here and there. I have lost about 12 more lbs... which is definitely a positive. The girls in the dr's office say they can really tell especially in my face... I will have to post some pics when I get home, don't have any here at work.



I really can't believe I am down 45 lbs... sooo awesome



I have so much to catch up on with everyone, I will be looking out for ya :)

Itchy Itchy.... Scratchy Scratchy

Well I headed to the doctor monday morning to find out what was wrong with me... over the weekend I began to break out down my arms and on the back of my legs and it itches like no tomorrow !!! Well after being seen by my doctor she diagnosed me with Stress Induced (big word couldn't say HERE) basically HIVES !!! can you friggin believe it? She said I could not sit still in her office and when she kept looking down and my bounching leg or me tapping my hand on my leg, or fiddling with my badge... I knew she was right. She was SOOOO RIGHT !!! Michael and this damn situation has actually given me hives. GEEZE !!! Well she gave me some meds to help and I certain hope they kick in before I itch myself to death... I have no self control when it comes to something itching !!! ARG !!!


WEIGH IN INFO !!!

So when I went to the dr on monday, same weight over the past 2 weeks... the exact same... so odd, but not complaining because it's not an increase... would definitely love to see a decrease soon !!!

My unmotivated Weigh In

Sorry I haven't been posting... I have been in the yuckiest funk of late. I have no motivation, no drive... I am just heart broken and it sucks. Things with Michael have been so difficult. Things came to a head I guess last Thursday. He came over to visit and was doing laundry and just hanging out and then he said he wanted me to talk to him. I told him I had nothing to say. He said he felt me pulling further away from him and he didn't want that to happen. He wanted me to express my feelings. SOoo I let him have it.

I told him I felt disrespected and that I hated second guessing everything that came out of his mouth if it was a lie or not and that I didn't want to live that way. I told him I didn't feel special anymore and that it was not fair what he was asking of me. He said he didn't always tell me things because he was trying to spare my feelings and said that if I wanted the whole truth that he would give it to me. I said ok, are you F%$^@*NG Michelle (his ex-wife)( I only asked b/c he had watched movies with her the night before) and he hesitated and said yes. Then I calmly said when was the last time and he had to think for a min like he didn't know and I said last night? and he said YES.... I pretty much in the calmest way I could, told him I couldn't do it anymore. I know we had the talk about going back to dating and that we agreed that was what we would do for awhile (well mostly him), but I couldn't do it. I told him that it was backwards, we got into a relationship and feelings got involved and now he wanted to take a step back and date. I told him I thought I could handle it but now I know I can't. I told him he had to go. He said when, what do you mean... I said NOW and you need to take all your stuff. He asked if I was serious... ohhh yeah. I couldn't stop crying and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do, but I told him to go, for good. He cried and begged me not to make him go. He said he couldn't be away from me... I told him he had to. OHHHH MY GOSH THAT WAS HARD... I felt my heart leaving when he did. After a few more calls later that night I told him to stop calling. I think he was in shock that I actually told him to go for good.

Well Friday was a nightmare... you should have seen the bombarding text messages I got.... here are a few... I had to delete a bunch of them because my memory kept running out

He started off by sending me a pic of him and telling me this was something to remember him by... what an ass...

I had previously told him I was going on a date on Fri night and he sent me this text..... Like I said before I feel like your still looking for another to love. But you have a great time tonight hope you find him to e a nice guy. Have a great one, talk to you later, I will always think of you and love you.

Then after several yucky texts... I hear nothing for about 3 hours and then out of the blue I get this text like nothing is wrong... So how are you beautiful?

Is he for real? Then a little while later I get... Why are you just going to be with someone else. Cause Im an a$$hole and you don't wait for me to make a decision anyway before you find someone to spend time with and I have my thoughts why you were cool at first and now you are not cool with it.

I tried to explain to him that when he came to me with the idea of dating other people, I thought it was just going to be some dating. He said it wasn't about sex and I believed him. Then the first girl he meets he sleeps with her the first night... how is that NOT about sex? How is it not about sex to go back the next week to screw her again? Then the very next girl you meet the next week, you sleep with her as well... but it's NOT about sex huh? ARE YOU KIDDING ME !!! I tried to be as honest to him as I could and told him that I thought I could handle it but I was wrong and it's way to much for me to handle, way to much for me to think about on a daily basis and way to hard for me knowing what he is doing when he is not with me... or knowing WHO he is doing... The final straw was when I found out he was sleeping with his ex-wife. I told him it's one thing to be with a stranger that is over 3 hours away, that I can see not getting serious but to sleep with his ex-wife that lives 10 mins from him and I know that there is history and love there.... that's where I draw the line ( I know I know should of drawn it alot sooner--what can I say, I was being an idiot)

he later sends me this text... Just cause I can't prove u lie don't mean you don't

That pissed me off. I have NEVER been anything but brutally honest to him about everything and his guilty concience... if he even has one of those is trying to push his bad habits off to me... WHATEVER...

Then he sends---U want me to trust u when u said that I was the one and u would wait then turn around and go to a dating site to meet guys. WHen the whole time your bitching at me to be honest. And I'm the only one who is wrong now. Want to talk double standard. Hope you find someone to spend time with and be happy with being you don't want to wait for me.

I could not believe he actually just told me I should not date even though he is screwing anything he can... that I should sit at home and wait on him and that I am horrible for thinking of even finding someone to spend time with... SERIOUSLY ? SERIOUSLY?

After that last text... I called him and said quit, just stop. I told him he has NO RIGHT to disrespect me in such a way, that I have done everything in my power to stand by him and understand, but that he was not going to push his guilty concience on me and make me feel bad for doing NOTHING wrong. He got pissed off at me and told me to have fun and he would talk to me SOMEDAY and hung up on me...

Then about 15 mins later I get this text....I just want to say im sorry. i am such an a$$hole and you don't deserve to be treated like that or spoke to like that. I will never want you to hate me i always want to be your friend if nothing else. You deserve better than me. I hope you will still love me because I do you.

HAHHH do you think I am going to respond to your stupid a$$ ?? NOPE !!!
The drama goes on... but it's pretty ridiculious... Just wanted to let you know where my funk is coming from.... The girl he last saw is in town this week for spring break and guess who she is staying with? shacking up with? I told my sister this morning that this is the end. That every day that goes by, I hate him more for what he has put me through and by the time this week is over and that girl is gone and he tries to call me after she leaves, I hope I am done with those feelings and can finally stick my ground !!!


ON TO MY WEIGHT... it's been 2 weeks ago today that I got half of my fluids removed from my bad due to the trouble I was having. I figured I would have gained a few lbs back by now... especially with the stress I have been under. Plus I am bloated and retaining water... that time of the month *UGH* but when I weighed this morning I was down .6 lbs... I know that's nothing but it's sooo much better than a gain. I think it might be a little less if I wasn't holding onto this water :)

Sooo at least that is a positive. I bought some new sexy barely there underwear this weekend while shopping with my sister, some stockings to go with my new garters and some cute new outfits. I am wearing one today and have gotten tons of compliments, so that definately makes me feel a little better.

I have so much reading to do on everyone's blogs and I'm about to get to it. LOTS OF LOVE to everyone !!!